This week has been the most exhausting week of my life. From planning the funeral to the visitation to Papa's funeral; it's been an emotional week. One I hope my family doesn't have to do again for a very, very long time. It still hasn't really set in. I don't honestly feel like he is really gone. Like he will just appear but I guess that's normal. I've never lost anyone close to me so these feelings are all very new for me.
Kohen had baseball camp every morning this week and both kids had soccer camp every evening. It's been hard getting them to and from everything but it's helped with them having something to do so I could take the time to help mom and Nana with whatever they needed. The kids did OK at the funeral today. Again, I'm so thankful they knew Papa and were close to him. I'm sad because I know Kohen was pretty upset by the whole thing. He cried a lot today and Kresee was almost hysterical during the funeral. She was so sad looking at his picture up there by his casket and then she would start thinking of Sage and Biskit in heaven and start crying even harder. Poor things. The funeral was beautiful. I picked the songs for the funeral and the slide show. A hard job but I thought they were all perfect songs.
How Great Thou Art--Carrie Underwood
Save a Place for Me--Matthew West
When You Get Where You're Going--Brad Paisley
Go Rest High--Vince Gill
Both my sister and cousin, Bryan, spoke today. They did a wonderful job telling funny stories about Papa and things we will always remember about him. There were so many people there was standing room only. The place seated 225 so there were lots of people there. A testament to his life; he was such a good man who was loved by many.
After we got Papa's funeral all set and figured out on Monday I went out to take some pictures of Lady. We wanted a picture of her to put in a flower wreath that would be in his casket for the visitation. Good thing she cooperated and I got a great picture. This picture was buried with him. She was by his side throughout this entire cancer fight and we know he would have wanted her beside him always.
I really don't have the words right now to express how I'm feeling other than I'm just so sad. I can't imagine how Nana feels or my mom and aunt; losing your husband and father has to be so hard. I just know he is no longer in pain; he can breathe without any problems and is in heaven watching over us until we see him again someday. I love you so much Papa. You meant the world to me. I couldn't have asked for a better grandfather and I'm so very lucky and blessed.
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